February 28th, 2016

Red Gyarados

Not sure what to call this.

Right now, I'm looking at seriously downsizing all my collections, but specifically my Pokemon and nail polish collections. It's an issue for a number of reasons--space, financial, my sanity (tied to the space and financial thing). I did some really stupid stuff, my first couple years in grad school. I was stressed and depressed. Some people turn to drink and drugs under those circumstances. I turned to credit cards and (online) retail therapy. (Compounding that, I think was some undiagnosed ADHD-related stuff.)

So, I'm trying to make a little of that money back. Sounds easy in theory. Go through everything, take the things that aren't "central" to my collection and pop them on eBay. But it's not. Every time I put something up (that isn't grab-bag nail polish or freebies that came with purchases or part of a lot from which I only wanted one or two things), I'm admitting that I didn't really want whatever it is, and it was an impulse purchase, and then I get down on myself. I shouldn't. I know I shouldn't. But it's difficult not to. The nail polish is a little easier to let go of. I probably have duplicates (or close enough) of several colors, and I'm figuring out what looks good on me, and what finishes I like and dislike. I still really don't like going through it, and unfortunately the indie polishes are a lot easier to destash than the mainstreams. (With the mainstreams I might have a hope of replacing them if I regret it. Indies? Not so much.) I also feel like I should give each polish a shot (unless I look at it and go "OH GOD WHAT WAS I THINKING?"), but it's harder to sell swatched or used polishes via eBay. There are other venues, but that requires a bit more effort.

The Pokemon collection is really hard, since I actually see it and it's not stuffed in boxes and hidden under stuff the way my polish is. I've gotten my big grail plush, so in some ways I kind of feel like I'm done, and everything else is extras. BUT. I'm not sure what to part with. The easiest place to start seems like it should be the things that were for-sure impulse purchases--some of the promo plush, any Ampharos, the Kyogres, various Pikachu and Raichu. But I look at my collection, and I just can't. In some ways, I feel like everything has a story behind it and its acquisition, and I want to hold on to it, to hold on to the feeling of getting the cool thing (both purchasing it and again when it arrives in the post) and having people ooh and ah over it. In the case of several things, a case of getting an item that I consider a grail or a minigrail. So those (the grails) are safe. It's everything else. The Ampharos Banpresto that I really only bought because it was adorable. The Kyogre Tomy that I wanted because it was huge and fuzzy. The Xatu Pokemon Time plush that I bought...because it was cute (and it's the closest thing I'll ever get to a Natu plush). The Xerneas Pokedoll, which I wanted because I liked the design (even though I've still not finished X and I don't love its design in the opening to the game). The Raichu Banpresto that was one of the big things I won a bid war on. I don't know what to do with them. Logic tells me to sell them: I'm an adult, I don't need toys, and it frees up space and some money to pay off my debts. My inner little girl, though, says "BUT MINE!" and I have difficulty shutting her up (which is how I got into this place).

So I'm trying to sort out what I will and won't miss. I can't say I'd miss everything, but at the same time, there's very little I can for-sure say that I won't miss, and I'm not sure I can handle this. I'd like to ask BF to help me out, but I feel like that's a cop-out, that I can on some level blame him for making me part with my treasures, which isn't fair on him. I have no idea what to do or how to do it.